I am the 366th...
My God time flies...It's incredible how things can chance so much in just one year...
A year go, I thought I had everything all figured out and laid out for me; my plans for the future were set, I felt comfortable where I was at career-wise, was living in LA(albeit at my folks' place, but that was only temporary), drove a Corolla, and on a lighter note(yes pun intended), I weighed about 162 lbs(I know I know...wtf, right?).
If someone were to ask me, do I miss my life from a year ago? Honestly, I would have to respond with a definite, "yeah, I do." Maybe not life exactly a year ago, but maybe a year and a half. I was happy back then...not that I'm not right now...but like I said, everything was different - there was direction, and more importantly for me, I was in love. I'm grateful for everything I've been blessed to experience to this point in my life, the experiences I've had, the people in my life, and everything else in between. There's various points throughout my life that I miss, simply because I know how I felt during those moments, or periods of my life...and why wouldn't I want to be there again? They were happy times - and I cherish those experiences. That's the great thing about great memories...you can remember how you felt, you can briefly "re-live" the moment, and you get to hold on it, even if for just a while. But be careful, because the same light, it can cause the exact opposite of happiness...but that only goes as far as you choose to let it affect you. Nothin wrong with that though, because hey, "...it takes some work to make it work, it takes some good to make it hurt, it takes some bad for satisfaction..." - just don't let it last too long.
Over the course of a year, I've learned a lot of things. Some things I have proabably always known and were reminded of, and others, I'd learned for the first time ever. I was reminded that life is FULL of changes - some that you want, some that you don't want. I learned that you can't push away things you need to deal with and hope they'll just go away - dealing with challenges and troubles in your life through distraction, denial, and just hopin it'll subside is not really dealing with anything at all. I learned that you HAVE to be happy with who you are before you can really bring happiness to anyone else. But most importantly, I learned that it is possible to express your love for another person by letting them go.
As it is often said...life goes on. And now, on April 20th, 2008, things have definitely changed in my life...A LOT. I have been considering lately whether or not I am happy where I am, career and achievement-wise. Have I peaked where I currently am and need to maybe pursue other dreams I have had? Where do I want to go? I don't know...yet - I'm still trying to work that out. I've also been living in Downey for 6 months now, and I drive a new car, also 6 months old. Lost 12 lbs(of course this one had to be covered since I mentioned it in my year ago statements), woohoo! But lastly...in terms of the my life overall, I don't really see too far past each day - I don't have any definitive plans for my future future...save for vacations and friends' weddings here and there, etc etc...but nothing other than that - nothing major. Life is good...could be better...but hey, it's good. I don't know where I'm headed - and it's totally okay. Sometimes the road gets bumpy, and there's a lot of turns, and I might not know exactly where it leads, but I'm enjoying the ride. =p
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"Life isn't perfect." In fact, a lot of the times, life every day seems far from it...and I think everyone willing to share an opinion can testify to that. Life is full of change, and the biggest piece of advice I can share about change is that you gotta roll with the punches. Accept change for that it is...change, and that it is just another lesson learned. Have faith that in the end, life will work itself out, and that anything is possible...
"Where there is light, there is hope."
- Bilbo Baggins
from "The Hobbit"
A year go, I thought I had everything all figured out and laid out for me; my plans for the future were set, I felt comfortable where I was at career-wise, was living in LA(albeit at my folks' place, but that was only temporary), drove a Corolla, and on a lighter note(yes pun intended), I weighed about 162 lbs(I know I know...wtf, right?).
If someone were to ask me, do I miss my life from a year ago? Honestly, I would have to respond with a definite, "yeah, I do." Maybe not life exactly a year ago, but maybe a year and a half. I was happy back then...not that I'm not right now...but like I said, everything was different - there was direction, and more importantly for me, I was in love. I'm grateful for everything I've been blessed to experience to this point in my life, the experiences I've had, the people in my life, and everything else in between. There's various points throughout my life that I miss, simply because I know how I felt during those moments, or periods of my life...and why wouldn't I want to be there again? They were happy times - and I cherish those experiences. That's the great thing about great memories...you can remember how you felt, you can briefly "re-live" the moment, and you get to hold on it, even if for just a while. But be careful, because the same light, it can cause the exact opposite of happiness...but that only goes as far as you choose to let it affect you. Nothin wrong with that though, because hey, "...it takes some work to make it work, it takes some good to make it hurt, it takes some bad for satisfaction..." - just don't let it last too long.
Over the course of a year, I've learned a lot of things. Some things I have proabably always known and were reminded of, and others, I'd learned for the first time ever. I was reminded that life is FULL of changes - some that you want, some that you don't want. I learned that you can't push away things you need to deal with and hope they'll just go away - dealing with challenges and troubles in your life through distraction, denial, and just hopin it'll subside is not really dealing with anything at all. I learned that you HAVE to be happy with who you are before you can really bring happiness to anyone else. But most importantly, I learned that it is possible to express your love for another person by letting them go.
As it is often said...life goes on. And now, on April 20th, 2008, things have definitely changed in my life...A LOT. I have been considering lately whether or not I am happy where I am, career and achievement-wise. Have I peaked where I currently am and need to maybe pursue other dreams I have had? Where do I want to go? I don't know...yet - I'm still trying to work that out. I've also been living in Downey for 6 months now, and I drive a new car, also 6 months old. Lost 12 lbs(of course this one had to be covered since I mentioned it in my year ago statements), woohoo! But lastly...in terms of the my life overall, I don't really see too far past each day - I don't have any definitive plans for my future future...save for vacations and friends' weddings here and there, etc etc...but nothing other than that - nothing major. Life is good...could be better...but hey, it's good. I don't know where I'm headed - and it's totally okay. Sometimes the road gets bumpy, and there's a lot of turns, and I might not know exactly where it leads, but I'm enjoying the ride. =p
___
"Life isn't perfect." In fact, a lot of the times, life every day seems far from it...and I think everyone willing to share an opinion can testify to that. Life is full of change, and the biggest piece of advice I can share about change is that you gotta roll with the punches. Accept change for that it is...change, and that it is just another lesson learned. Have faith that in the end, life will work itself out, and that anything is possible...
"Where there is light, there is hope."
- Bilbo Baggins
from "The Hobbit"
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